I am going to share some background information on myself so that you who struggled with life can know you are not alone and that I can personally relate to many of the challenges before you.

This is my story: I was born in Puerto Rico in 1953. I am fluent in both English and Spanish. By the conventional astrological signs, I am an Aquarius, by Chinese astrology, a Snake. (If you'd like to know more about typologies beyond Astrology, here is a website that has several of the less usual, but valid and interesting ones.  http://planetarygovernor.org/Corridor/Personally/Know_Thyself/k now_thyself.html

I am the second of two siblings. As a young child we traveled with the Army for a period of 3 years, returning to P.R. My parents moved to a suburb of the capitol, San Juan. Soon after, my father moved his family: his grandmother; mother and five siblings to the other half of our duplex. Not long after moving here, my father started to have affairs and to interfere with his mother's way of raising his siblings. Then arguments and fights started until he finally left.
     He kept coming and going for about 6 years, until my brother drowned at which time he moved back in with us. He stayed with us for a period of 3 years until the affairs started again. It wasn't until seven years ago that I realized how I had allowed my mother to put, not only her life but mine in danger too. During those same last years I have lost my step dad, my mother and my family. I have changed jobs about five times, bought my first home on my own and seen my best friend child grow up right before my eyes. I have also found a new life partner and best of all I have learned to believe in me as others have done even before I myself acknowledged it. All of these have helped define who I am.
     I went to college and on my last year, 1973 I got married. I had my first child in 1974. In 1978 we moved to the continent, lived in Kansas, Colorado, Nevada, Iowa, Nebraska, Virginia and California. During those moves I had 3 more children. At the same time I managed to visit several more states.
     The longest I have lived in one state has been 10 years and counting. It has been during those same years that my greatest challenges, lessons and the reaffirmation of my beliefs has happened. I have learned to truly believe in me, so I can better help and continue to be part of a community.

I have learned that I am responsible
for what has happened in my life.

In a way, I have been blessed most of my life. Blessed in not seeing (for what they were) most of the "bad" things that happened in my life. I never put that connotation "bad" on them. on those experiences. For me, they were just things that happened.
     As an example, I remember being 7 years old and holding my mothers hand as she walked to the middle of the street to stop a car where my father was a passenger with another woman. It wasn't until five years ago that I realized how I had allowed my mother to put, not only her life but mine in danger too. You might say that I could do nothing about that but that is not true.

During those same last five years I spoke about earlier I have lost my step dad, my mother and my family. I have changed jobs about five times, bought my first home on my own and seen my best friends child grow up right before my eyes. I have also found a new life partner and best of all I have learned to believe in myself. All of these have helped define who I am.

My Beliefs: First, I believe in a universal god/goddess which I call "ALL That Is". This is where we came and where we will return. "All that Is" sees us both as individuals and as apart of itself. Because of this, we are magnificent beings, capable of realizing our own true divine nature. Our potential is limited only by our own beliefs and fears.

I heard someone once compare us to a drop of water
in the ocean. That drop of water is clear, well formed, unique. 

When it joins that ocean, it becomes part of it,
to the point that it can use it's strength to
accomplish any thing that it wants,
be it creative or destructive.

I believe that we are all magnificent and can achieve oneness with "All".

I believe I believe in allowing children to Be children. I would love to see society recognize that we need to allow children to grow and develop to a greater degree at their own pace than we allow them to now.Western society starts pushing our children to grow fast, by expecting them to learn at our view of when they should start formal learning, not when they are able and ready to.
     We expect them to behave like grown ups when they still do not understand what this means and can not yet assert who they are. By doing this, we suppress their intuitiveness, their own "real Self", supporting conflict within them. Then, when they start claiming their adult hood, we tell them they are still children under our command, we negate what we have been pushing them to be, responsible.
     Other societies have demonstrated to be more sensitive to children's needs in this aspect. They are allowed to be children until a specific age or event in their life, then they become adults thus allowing them to grow up, to a point, at there own pace.

I believe in the providing a proper environment loving care for children. For instance: A subject close to my heart is Childrens Group Homes. While I have had a fair amount of jobs in my life, it has been the work I did and saw that I could do in the area of group homes that impacted and inspired me the most. Seeing how kids were treated and seeing the possibility of better treatment for them is what has me being committed to providing a better answer to the challenge of helping troubled kids grow up into intelligent, healthy and conscious minded individuals.
     I have worked at several group homes for a total of 10+ years. I did the everyday work as well as the administrative part of the job of taking care of these children. I saw what worked and what did not. Irealized that a program has to change according to the clients which are all individuals. Some programs just provide the minimum of guidance, perpetuating a dysfunctional environment like the ones they came from. We need a balance to allow the kids to settle in to the new environments we provide for them. Don't start making them march to our drum right off the bat. We don't have to be so regimented in our approach. More on my views as to Childrens Group Homes can be read here.

At this time there are what I call Children of the Light (indigos and such). They are here to help us. They have their powers active, they remember where they came from. They scare us, so we negate them. They, then, retrieve into themselves, hide what they are here to do. Some of these children are born "autistic", they force us to see things different, to deal with them at a more intimate level. Some act out (ADD and ADHD) and we just medicate them. They need our support and acceptance. I am here to help them.

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